input

if you heard something was happening here...
would you take note just by name?


if you saw this logo...
would it peak your interest?


feedback – bring it.

-k.

figment

a few years ago i was introduced to a friend of a friend who had heard a lot about me for a number of years – yet never met me. we had a joke that he had begun to to think of me as a figment of our mutual friends imagination. over the years we've formed our own friendship - odd, none the less friendship. yesterday – randomly – we co-exist for a moment in time and it was great. even better –– something else came out of that moment in time. i had a realization i haven't had in many many years. long enough that i had forgotten about it. i enjoy being a friend. i suck at it a lot, but i try. i try to listen. i try to make even the slightest hint of a smile appear, i try to help where i can. yesterday while talking to my friend, who ive picked up and dusted off a few times, i realized thats when i feel like i'm actually breathing in this world.

-k.

touching [repost]

my friend rusty posted this today and it hit me, so i thought i'd share.




In spite of any drama you go though.... in spite of any bad breaks and deals you have had to endure, in spite of all the hard times that so many of Us go through and are going through now...there is ALWAYS SOMEONE IN YOUR CORNER. Lean when you need to.



And We never forget why We do this and who We are.

If there is one piece of unsolicited advice I would be happy to give you, it is this:

'Do 'You' fearlessly and without regret. Believe in yourself and others will believe in you.

'

Thanks for believing in Us. We're just getting started...

'We Are Dynamic And People Like Us'

'We Are Dynamic And We Love You.'



Respect and Grace,

Rusty

life in general

i'm reaaaaally over being lied to and steamrolled.

if you're reading this and wondering 'is she talking about Me?'
i probably am.

check yourselves.


-k.

fastlane

i dont think its a secret that i'm a fan of vehicles. downright point blank - they're sexy. cliche i know. but... the lines. the power. the art. the sound. all of it. muscle cars. custom cars. sports cars. race cars. classic cars. trail vehicles. there was a series out a few years back that used a lot of fine looking rides and incorporated it with great film work, excellent color, great music, humor and some decent plots centered around the candy store. it aired on friday nights at eight or nine. it was ryan, chad and myself hangin' – kick back some beverages of choice, playin' chess (which eventually turned into intoxicated sorry and drunken jenga) and the teevee dialed in on Fastlane. after a season and a half it got pulled. practically vanished. it resurfaced a few weeks ago on dvd and i saw it as a must buy. its been sitting on my kitchen counter since i bought it. i was afraid i was going to ruin those memories.... especially if the show wasn't what i remembered it being. never fear – popped it in this weekend. it was all still there but my two friday night buddies. check it.

-k.

meme

1. a smile for kell, 2. Life Cereal Advertisment 1976, 3. web caroline kholes hamse2, 4. Dreamy Midnight Blues, 5. The New And Refined James Hetfield., 6. Have a Coke and a Smile, 7. Abandoned house behind Rockland Lake, 8. The End of Chuckles the Clown, 9. Imagine., 10. I don't know the answer, 11. dawn passion, 12. Sunset at Port Klang, Malaysia (Explore 30th June 2007)

And here is how you can play along at home...
a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker.
1. What is your first name? (kell)
2. What is your favorite food? (life cereal)
3. What high school did you go to? (hamilton southeastern)
4. What is your favorite color? (midnight blue)
5. Who is your celebrity crush? (hetfield)
6. Favorite drink? (coke)
7. Dream vacation? (haunted places)
8. Favorite dessert? (chuckles)
9. What do you want to be when you grow up? (creative)
10. What do you love most in life? (i don't know)
11. One word to describe you. (searching)
12. Your Flickr name. (klang)
If you do opt to play along, please leave me a comment with the location of your creation so I can see it!

** i think this is one of those things that changes daily, but in doing it - i realized ive lost touch with myself and the wind is gone.

unbelievable.

how does one mess up rice crispy treats?
seriously.
WHO DOES THAT???!??!!??
your girls got skills.

video time warp - metal(ish)

POISON - Fallen Angel ('88)

Open Up And Say Ahhh.... huge album in my life. everything from the cover art to the last note of bad to be be good. i can remember riding around in mom's 1982 two-toned blue chevrolet caprice, thumbing the cassette into the player, trying to convince her that it wasn't going to make me do drugs and get thrown in jail.  watching dust shift as i was slammin' down the drum fills on the broad blue dash in front of me - the world seemed to make more sense.

BON JOVI - Wanted Dead or Alive ('86)
i watched it – and i wanted it. i wanted it all. i wanted to be on the road. i wanted to see the day to day. i wanted to help make the show happen. i knew it was long - i knew it was ugly, but i wanted it. i never wanted to be on stage... but i wanted to help those that were up there giving it their all day in, night out


SKID ROW - 18 and life ('89)
i was thirteen or fourteen when i heard this the first time. at that point, i couldnt wait to be eighteen. forget sixteen and wheels... i wanted to be eighteen so i could be out on my own.... doing things my way.... away from the rules and their roof... i look back now and i was the good kid, with a great mom. all i really wanted to do was be loved for who i was. Sebastian Bach's voice on that album took me away if only for a second.


BEASTIE BOYS - No Sleep 'til Brooklyn ('86)
i just remember seeing their videos in the eighties when we were sneaking mtv since we weren't supposed to watch it. my sister and i just sat there saying "What IS This???" mine was in a good way; hers – not so much. i was ten. at recess jimmy, nathan, myself and a few others would jam to anything that had a groove beat.


GUNS N' ROSES - It's So Easy ('87)
wearing my keds – no laces, this album and i walked for miles. we mowed the lawn. we rode in the third from the back seat on the right of the yella-fella. this album was a definite no-no. there were skulls on the cover – five of them. obscenities. drugs. arrests. hid that gn'r tshirt for a looong time. even washed it at a friends house.


SUICIDAL TENDENCIES - send me your money ('90)
my grandma was this lil older lady who was always very involved in the church. the teevee worships that were on back in the day infuriated her to no end. Reverend Send-Me-Your-Dollar is what she called them. lights...camera...revolution is still an album that gets brought out on road trips and after a crap-a-fied day.

METALLICA - One ('88)

1989 – they tried to ignore it when i picked up puppets from the rack.  the cover art - i had to have it.  had no idea what it would sound like.  i sat on the bus, slunk down, knees on the seat in front of me, i clunked the tape in my walkman not having a clue what was about to happen.  the was one of the best rides to school – ever!  not long after that i caught eye of the video for One.  the imagery, the lyrics, thought. my life has never been the same.  

capitals.

. . . as in letters – not cities.

i've gotten a few messages since i started blogging, and several over the years about my incorrect grammar and lack of capital letters.  i'm not an english major, and i dont really remember having much grammar in school... but i write quickly, and i write how i think.  it is what it is.  honest and raw.  

as for the the capital letters – they just annoy me.  flat out.  distracting even.  they stand out.  things that stand out should be things of importance... and where as the beginning of new spewage of text may be important to some, it is not to me.    my friend is creative with the capital letters though.  he throws them in middle of words, he uses them in places that they matter.  that i love.  

so, lesson: 

capital letter = take note.

BOLD/ITALICS = they're will be a pop quiz later.

Thanks for reading :)  

-k.

true.

the guy you see at the right...  truly a great person.  he'd give you the shirt off his back, without you asking, if he thought you might need it.  he's one of the only friends i still hang with from high school.   he works hard. he's got a huge heart.  always looking for a good time. he's always there.  he's helped me move countless times - including driving a box truck back thru the mountains in a blizzard. the roadtrips... the concerts... the races... and this weekend – he's helping me me (more like i'm helping him i guess) finish my garage.  i owe him a lot, yet he just shrugs and accepts nothing in return.  the next few hotbox's and covers are on me grandpa! :)   much love, and thanks for being such an amazing person –– thru everything.  one day it will be amazing and you'll find that they don't always finish last.  you deserve the best.

-k.

blinky.

okay... forgot to mention something today.

and no – we're not talking Blinky from Pac-Man.

we're talking turn signals.  

they come fully functional - standard - on most vehicles, correct?

if i'm  mistaken - pleeeease tell me.  

is it really that hard to stick the pinky out and hit the blinker.

the blinker.

the flashers.

the turn signal.

the arrow.

the whatever-the-hell-you-call-it. 

USE IT!!!!

-k.

sooze.

tonight i got to have dinner with my friend suz from college.  she moved to arizona after college and we lost touch for a while until i hunted her down a few years back.  she's in town... okay, so atleast indiana, for a few weeks with her husband dan.  it was so good to get to spend some time chittering over dinner at shake 'a steak.  crazy.  when she blogs the photo, i'll snag it. :)  

oober tired.  peace out.

-k.

destination unknown

its a good thing today is sunday night and not last thursday, even friday.   i went on a drive earlier today that was about two hours.  made myself pull it in the garage b/c gas is so expensive but clearly wasn't done.... went on another one that was damn near three hours.  the two were separated by the swimming olympic trials.  if work wasn't on the schedule for tomorrow – im not sure how far i would have gotten.  

temperature was perfect.  radio was decent. yes - radio... just letting it scan until something clicked with what i was thinking about.  lots of older stuff this trip.  pretenders, lipps inc., don mclean, skid row, prince, ll cool j, mad season, boys ii men, ac/dc . . . 

i drove no where.  big circles around little circles and a loop back to switch it up and circle somewhere else.  tomorrow is huge.  its my first day having the whole north office to do design work for.  i'll have the help of a girl downtown for mondays and tuesday, but the rest of the week, its yours truly.  i'm not sure if thats what i cant get my head away from or if its things going on with friends.... but as much as i drove... it wasn't clearing up.  but i could have driven forever.  i wanted to drive forever . . .

what i do know... 

like they say say in elizabethtown - "some music needs air - roll down your window."

musicians with skills.

the music business sucks.  

okay, so i can't say that from personal experience, but i can tell you that i'm frustrated seeing extremely talented musicians working a day job, sometimes a night job too, to live.  they live that way because they love music and will do what they need to in order to do what they love.  mad respect for that.  my issue: the non-talented, everyone-sounds-the-same, i'm-blowing-my-cash, no-hearted, i've-got-a-record-deal 'talent' that have gotten record deals or "made it big" (hate that phrase) for whatever reason.  

now with the way things are, anyone can get their stuff on a cd and distributed.  thats do-able change.  but touring, promo and merch... thats a lot of pocket lint.  and a lot of times, you cant give up that day (and night) job to do all that yourself no matter how much you try.  how does it change? can it change without a money-grubbing-untrustworthy-deeppocket label?   so what do you do to get noticed sans label? why are some of the most talented individuals i've met in a long time not getting picked up?  its not for lack of effort.  its not for lack of talent.  its not for lack of contacts.  is it because they don't have a 'niche?'  

it frustrates me because i listen to the radio and nothing stands out.  its beginning to sound like the teacher off the peanuts cartoons.  whahwhamwhaaaaaaaawhah. it frustrates me because i know that cats like dave borla and chris scianni (dangerman / the secret resistance) and rusty redenbacher (mudkids / lazarus)  have talent everyone should get an earful of.  thats just to name a few.  the music.  the vocals.  the heart.  the loyalty. the everything.   maybe i'm biassed.  i dont know.  and sure its all in opinion.... but i believe in these guys.  

music business as a whole has been whack for a while, then the internet happened, and the whole thing is a struggle and combuzle.  radio is no different.  more music - less talk.  yes, theres more music, but they just have more rotation of the songs that i didnt want to hear in the first place.  do that - you may say iPod.  i do use it - when i work out or when i travel, sometimes at work.  thats how i can listen to talent - that honest to god talent.  in my car, its usually radio just in anticipation of hearing something that stands out above the rest.

im sure there is no answer, and not being a musician, i'm not sure why it frustrates me so much. i've covered states to pay that $5 cover to see talent i enjoy.  to support.  it kills me not to be able to do it for everyone at every show.  if you've got something you believe in - something you love to listen to... let me know.  send me a link... send me a file... always love to listen to new stuff.  any genera.  

jobbyjob

things in the media industry are rarely stable - job wise with younger people coming up and technology changing.  you learn, or you get gone.  its becoming more apparent than every now with the way the economy is right now.  gannett - the parent company of the indianapolis star is making a lot of changes.  newspapers are fighting story and ad to keep alive it seems and they're restructuring . . . a lot.  its scary when you see so many things shift at once and you wonder if you're next.  when you're gut is telling you something repeatedly you take notice, ya know?  so i'm approaching with caution.  i've cut a lot of things out for the summer... big concerts, road trips, california trips (maaaaan i want to catch the zeromind slims show!) ... just stuff.   you try to adapt.  i miss my west coast friends. its been a long time. 

trying to learn.  

trying to save.  

trying to breathe.  

p a t i e n c e .

something's going down, and i'm trying to be ready.

-k.