badass bumbershoots

missing.

2012-02-05T01:23:00.001-05:00

how is it possible to miss something so much - when it was never had?

metallica filmore week!

2011-12-12T18:37:00.002-05:00

home. unpacked. laundry done. *head drops...* work tomorrow.

i cant believe how incredibly fast the week went. seriously flew by. and other than alcatraz with debbie on saturday - i didnt sight-see a single thing! slept and stood and roooooocked! truely was one of the best weeks of my life. knowing how they are - im sure they'll either do a 'best of' dvd or a four-pack or something. BUY it. YouTube it... something. there were some amazing things that happened.

most people headed down to start a line between 4 and 5pm - some 4am - others right at 6:30 when the doors opened. standing in line you met sooo many people - from all over the globe. it was crazy where everyone was from and how far they had traveled - some without tickets hoping to score a chance to be someones +1 for the evening. there was a lot of ".... where have we me before??" going on - and lord knows you had the time to stand there and figure it out. Once that line started moving - *WHAM-O!* you were searched, ticketed, stamped and claiming your spot for the evenings festivities. Apart from wednesday night, the crowd was pretty calm. a pit here and there, but thats to be expected trying to squeeze your way up front. The crowd was overall cool - they'd expand to save your spot if you had to go to the restroom, grab a beverage, catch a smoke or just find a spot to relieve your feet for two seconds.

I had never been to the filmore, but from what i could tell - and i stood just about everywhere in the venue - not a bad spot in the house. balcony uptop for the VIPs, sound and lights in the back. Upstairs across from the VIP section, they had the metallica museum. total craziness. lars' kit from the black album tour, james' burnt guitar, doris' head, pushead art, cliffs bass was something that was added later in the week - amazing! hopefully theres a full set of pictures somewhere because it was really neat. sound was great!

Each night started out with the soul rebel brass band. always good to rock out with. then the boys came out and said a quick hello - introduced jim breuer and the night was rollin' from there. Trivia contests - jeopardy style, Name-That-Rif game... quite amusing. Both were hosted by jim - who got funnier by the night. Each night there were cliff stories. funny - emotional - crazy - great! Ray Burton, cliffs dad came out on monday night, scott ian and kirk one night, James and jim martin told some, and rob talked about the inspiration. After all the heartfelt yammering - opening band. Apocalyptica (monday), Armored Saint (wednesday), Laaz Rockit (friday), Death Angel (saturday). Monday was by far the best. the apocalyptica guys - holy hell.... AMAZING! I've always liked armored saint, so that was great to see as well. Death Angel I had never listened to - but enjoyed their show. Laaz Rockit - never heard of, never want to hear again. only once have i ever seen a metallica crowd so unwelcoming and uninterested in an opening band of my 70+ shows.

Once the opening bands were done, the metallica guys strolled out, sometimes still half dressed for the evening, finishing their banana, adjusting a belt, etc. There was no 'lights fade down' or ecstasy of gold.... they talked a second, cracked a joke, did a quick jab and then they went to work. First song each night was an instrumental. really enjoyed that. Ktulu (mon), to live is to die (wed), suicide & redemption (fri) and orion (sat). suicide was a little rough for the first few minutes - which they joked about on saturday and played the first minute or so again, which received a chuckle from the crowd.

The setlist was completely different each night except for the last song (seek and destroy). That was a treat for us fans who were there for each night - but i can't imagin how much preparation it had to have been for them. Thats a lot of songs - some which haven't been played for years - if ever. Kirk had some notes on a music stand, and james some lyrics via the vox box - and can't say i'd not have to do the same thing! There was one new song that was overstock from death magnetic played each night which was very cool to hear. Metallica played a good chunk of songs each night on their own and then it was 'special guest time'. One lucky clubber (saturday it was a newly married couple) got picked to come up and jam with the band. was quite cool. There were always rumors, predictions, and that one guy who 'knows for sure!' whos going to be there - but i tried not to hear/read anything. I wanted to be surprised like a kid on christmas morning... and i was. I did the predicting myself - to which i have to say did alright on... but was truly a lot of fun standing there among all the fans awaiting the announcement on who was joining them next - and how they were related to metallica's history.

special guests:

monday:apocalptica, jason newsted, biff byford (saxon), sean harris * brian tatler (diamond head)

wednesday: marianne faithful, ray haller, kid rock, john bush, lou reed, jason newsted, king diamond

friday: jerry cantrell, animal (anti-nowhere-league), gary rossington, pepper keenan, jim martin, jason newsted, glenn danzing, rob halford

saturday: bob rock, geezer butler, ozzy osbourne, jason newsted, hugh tanner, dave mustaine, lloyd grant, ave mustaine, ron mcgoveny

Friday night they gave a big shout out and thank you to the metclub staff. some of those cats have been around a long time and work their pah-toots off so it was awesome to see. Saturday they thanked some of their long-time crew members like Bean, Zach and Mick. nothing but devil horns, applauds and hollars from the crowd. credit where credit was due.

I cannot begin to tell you how amazing the week was and how lucky i feel to be a part of one night - let alone all four. If i had to pick a favourite night - i'm not sure i could. some had strengths and some had weaknesses - but overall - it just kicked total ass. I met some great people, heard and shared so many stories, learned a lot and flat out rocked til every muscle in my body ached. I've been a metclubber since '94 and have several times thought about not renewing because of financial issues or life goings-on - but when you look back on all that i've experienced through the club and the friends i've made and the places i've been - all in relation to the club, no way i'm not sending that couple of bucks in each July.

Ive attached links to photos of all 4 filmore shows and some of my time spent at HQ. They're bare bones - and even a mislabeling on a few (am-i-evil was never the closing song - always seek & destroy). blurry, washed out, cut off... but maybe you'll get a taste of how the week went. I've also attached the setlist (thank you metontour.com) for each night.

filmore shows

2011-07-26T21:27:00.002-04:00

sometimes you purposely put on the clown suit and strut around, other times you know you have it on, but cant for the life of you figure out how the hell it happened.

as i look

2011-07-26T18:28:00.001-04:00

walking across that old dirt floor

knowing not a soul tonight

through the chaos… in front of me

i heard only that one thing

the sound of your laugh… hit my heart

freeing it from fifteen years shut

as i look around the wall

one by one i watch them fall

broken hearts and many tears

of those who wanted you so near

a dance among two strangers

became more than we knew

as we shared our truths… and our dreams

even though we both had others

special were those the nights…upon the checkered tiles

spinning to the tunes of past

as i look around the hall

one by one i feel them fall

the tears upon my face

while you wed the one in lace

thinking that my chance was done

not a day went by i didn't ask why

dancing with another another… i did try

but with every step and every laugh

only did it cause… my soul to ache

for with you i wanted to be

as i look around the town

one by one she let you down

listen is all i could do

being there just for you

through it all we both stood tall

knowing our hearts beat still true

upon the back hill… that special night

i heard only that one thing

the sound of your voice... honest and true

forever to be me and you

as i looked in your eyes

thankful we gave it a try

for in the world of glistening snow

we shared for all those to know

long road we have traveled since then

journeys of a lifetime still to go

the sound of your laugh… still in my heart

wish to have you here with me

forever in your arms… so tight

thank you my friend, for being my light.

in tune.

2011-02-09T18:50:00.001-05:00

a handful of stars in the sky

you're so far away and why

because tonight i cannot deny

feelings in my heart don't lie

back then with just a glance

followed by song and dance

time apart we did so mend

you became my best friend

wounds and scars we both wear

inside and out - how they do tear

having someone there to share

understanding like this so rare

ive never met one like you

alluring and strong - this is true

hard to believe we've not met

to enjoy many a sunset

fading off to sleep tonight

dreams it will all be right

because for us i will fight

it is you that gives me such might

your voice still on my mind

that laugh - one of a kind

time together it just flies

darkness - i close my eyes

end 'o year.

2010-12-28T03:45:00.001-05:00

a week off work to wrap up a long looong year.

congratulations on making it.

thoughts coming soon....

The Animal Odd Couple

2010-08-24T23:46:00.001-04:00

In this latest installment of CBS News Assignment America, Steve Hartman visits an animal sanctuary where a dog and an elephant have formed a very lasting, and unusual, friendship

cherish your friends, no matter the differences.

much love.

-k.

time stands still.

2010-08-07T02:20:00.007-04:00

just wanted to post a few tunes that no matter where i am, or what im doing when i hear them, time stands still. puts me in a place thats calm, safe and full of laugher if only for a minute. xx

(and yes rock the planet, i know i just lost my lifetime metal membership)

faith of the heart - russell watson

walking in memphis - marc cohn

just to see you smile - tim mcgraw

the wonder of you - elvis presley

i'll stand by you - the pretenders

just one

2010-08-04T20:06:00.003-04:00

one game changes everything.

heard frequently throughout world cup. its really so true for the game of life - where each moment, each opportunity, is part of the game. one right decision, you're flying high. one not-so-right decision and you're in a canyon. the fun ones are the surprise decisions -- the unsure -- the new and different. you've also got those i-know-better-than-this decisions... but you look over each shoulder and jump anyway.

what do you do when you've jumped with a 50/50 chance of favorable outcome and your parachute doesn't work? the whole way down - images and audio playing in your head - but scrambled - so they dont so much go together. you're falling rapidly and yet, so slowly. the anticipation of meeting the ground overwhelms you to the point that you cant even shut your eyes and hang on... you're there - deer in a headlights stare - waiting.

you know not what to do. they say life is yours to live, but is that really the case? those same people tell you life isn't fair. theres those things you want so much out of life that your soul aches for them and those that with all your being you hope you never experience in your life.

while sitting, staring - waiting - aching and experiencing, it occurs to you how insignificant the fact that your parachute didn't open is because there is someone else, someone close to you - or the stranger you rode the elevator with today, who has less that a 50/50 chance of a favorable outcome in their game of life.

so your soul aches and you've got a large bag that you never wanted sitting by your feet. you made the i-know-better-than-this decision and it changed the game. it changed everything. you have to look at what you have. you have your soul, a bag - large one at that, and feet. you're already doing better than someone you had contact with today.

breathe. loosen grip. blink. hang on for the ride cos its about to get crazy.

songs along the way...

2010-07-20T18:42:00.004-04:00

everyone has those songs... the songs that remind you of a certain time, place, person and even opened up new world of music to you. here are a few of those songs for me. if the links dont work for you for whatever reason, take a looksy somehow.

-k.

morricone - ecstasy of gold
from the first time i saw cool laid back blonde to the opening of my seventieth metallica show this song has taken me so many places. every time i hear it the heart rate rises, memories rush, adrenaline kicks in...
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neil diamond - i am i said
i grew up dancing around the family room with my mom spinning vinyl that rung out from speakers that were taller than me. every genre you could think of. neil was a staple in our house and as i got older, this song always stood out to me. no matter what i wanted - once i got it... i was was always looking for something else to else.

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kenny rogers - makin' music for money
what a classic album. like neil, we about wore this album out. two songs were dropped on many times over - the hoodooin' of miss fanny dooberry and makin' music for money. i would stand on the ottoman and pretend i was on stage - ponytails a flyin' around.
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metallica - disposable heros
knees on the seat in front of me, headphones in, slouched down, yella fella heading east towards olio i would listen to master of puppets again and again and again. there was something about this song... im not sure if it was the rebellious teen i tried to be, where i saw myself amongst others or my outlook on the world... but as i get older, my feelings for this song are still strong.
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bobby freeman - do you want to dance
homemade saddle shoes, a felt poodle pinned on a skirt and really really bad hair... a school fifties dance. captivated as i stood gigging with friends on the dark half of the gym. as much as i loved this song, you would think i -at some point - would have learned to dance.
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mike post - the renegade
im a theme song junkie and a child of the eighties... i can't remember a time when mike post didnt have a theme or music on teevee. from rockford files a-team to magnum to hill street blues and then there was renegade. as much cheese as it was there was something about the bike, the outlaw, the hair, the mystique...
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larry williams - bony maronie
layin on my sisters shag carpet listening to her portable tape player... we're not talkin' boom box.. we're taking bottom of the line black, flat, simple in/out cassette player. she had some compilation tape that had this song on it. we would sing and laugh and repeat. it opened me up to a new sound, an new era - and i couldn't get enough.
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bob seger - like a rock
i know its a commercial song now... but back then ... late eighties... i didnt care. every summer, for a week, the family and some friends would spend as much time as we could on kentucky lake. many beers in im sure combined with the sun, and the driver of the boat would turn up like a rock as we were all takin' a swim. not a care in the world at that point. i can still see the slight dance moves in my head. amazing how just a few notes can take you back to a simpler time.
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the truth.

2010-07-11T19:23:00.004-04:00

its a funny thing - truth.

theres levels of it and ways to side step and twist it.

have enough respect to be honest about it all.
the pain of the truth is far less than compounded lies.

-k.

the journey.

2010-07-10T21:42:00.003-04:00

sometimes theres a curve ball in life. things we didnt see coming. things that weren't planned. but they happen. i've always thought that if you try hard enough to forget them or even think you've done well trying to fight them.. some things just dont go away. they just dont.

thats where your friends come into play. hopefully they're real about it. they flat out say deal with it - and move on. usually you're not comin' out of it without some battle scars. sometimes tomorrow scares the hell out of you. your rocks will see your weakness, your fears and your tears - but hopefully one day after the scars and the darkness you realize that life is worth living - its worth fighting for - and you stand strong and tall with those who love you enough to have pushed you through the ugly.

don't let the world and its curves control you. dont be be rolled by the unknown. control your own. drawn strengths from those around you. take the journey. dont just survive - be victorious.

-k.

earcanal

2010-07-07T16:40:00.002-04:00

so, im in a rut with music right now and welcome any suggestions of new stuff or old stuff that deserves a new listen. life is pushing extremes from nelson ta polly right now and would love some new tunes. so whatchya got?

with four days off - in a row, gave me a lot of time to think. was awesome. but with thinking comes a whole 'nother wave of everything. many things in a different perspective. its good. much thanks to everyone in my life - you guys are amazing.

is been damn near a month and the cup is winding down. sad really. ive worked some crazy hours, seen some crazy calls, made some crazy friends and we're down to four teams - two games. man-o-man. it was nice to see more people curious, interested... not sure what the word is really.

oh! my hours have switched, so if you're looking for me - look earlier b/c im sleepin' much earlier these days.

time is a crazy thing. what happens in a split second, a day, two weeks, a year... its not about the time. its about what happens in that segment that really matters.

-k.

all in

2010-07-06T11:31:00.005-04:00

im in love with a sound.
a carefree laugh that comes alive
that makes a bad day better,
a good day the top of the world
it plays in my head every day
it fills my dreams at night.

i'm in love with a strength.
a strength to none ive ever known
one to let in, to trust, to stand.
it pulls me up when i have fallen
makes me face whats gone past
and makes me tall for tomorrow

I'm in love with a heart.
a heart as big as the heavens
one torn in pain, and beats in joy
the world it should have in return
mine it will have forever
beating strong as song

im in love with a voice.
a voice ive never met
yet is more real than anything
words that challenge, words that sing
ones that weigh heavy on the past
and and are unsure of the future

im in love with a you.
a you that has brought me magic
a you that carries the world
a you that told me it was okay
a you that deserves the most
a you that i smile at in thanks

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for a friend.
-k.lang.

you and what army....

2009-07-15T12:11:00.003-04:00

this clip is long... but watch the whole thing. its unbelievable.

. . .

2009-04-30T16:42:00.002-04:00

so... im long overdue for a bloggity blog.

lots gone on, but yet, the blog sits – untouched.

i'll see if i can do a re-cap soon of some of the highlights.

until then...

be great and create.

-k.

movies galore

2008-10-30T23:35:00.004-04:00

i've been watching a lot of movies lately and there have been quite a few great ones. (trailers posted below)

finally got to see Saw V. i was pretty disappointed really. four was okay, and five just seemed like filler to me. it might mean the next one is going to be great b/c you have all this background, but . . . eh.

maid of honor. yes, i know - totally chick flick, but it was good. kinda sent me into a whole whirlwind, but was still cute.

lets see, after that was bucket list. good movie. great concept, and to actors i love... but they didnt seem to mesh to me in the movie. maybe they weren't supposed to. i dunno. but definitely worth the rent. everyone has that list... dont wait until you're out of time to scratch things off.

i believe the next flick was shutter. I wanted to see this in theaters, but never made it. i wasn't in love with it. great concept, and i loved the cast.... just was missing something. if you can get it at redbox, cool - but not worth much more than the buck-a-roo.

next up was midnight movie. i got a facebook message from ball state alum that they were having a premier for midnight movie and i booked my seat right away. its a bigfoot entertainment film, which is where my cousin fills a ceo chair. had to check it out. after seeing saw and being let down, this was great! proud of ya kacy. screenings in theaters soon... its a great B horror flick that has great music in it.

tonight i redboxed the strangers. ive seen a lot of movies that are weird and whatnot... but this one freaked me out more than i think any movie has in decades. the score was great. acting was pretty believable. freaked me the frick right out. im good now... but its one of those movies you wont ever forget and it'll wake you up in the middle of the night. love it.

saw v

maid of honor

bucket list

shutter

midnight movie

the strangers

Saw V... kind of.

2008-10-23T23:50:00.003-04:00

one of the ads that i build each week is for great escape theaters. i received an email this morning wanting to ad a Saw V time to their listing for thursday night (early viewing) at ten o'clock. though it was too late to get it in their ad, i however was excited to see it!! let me just say i dread going to the theater. i used to kick and scream as a kid when we went – it makes me sick. HOWEVER... i can't wait to see this film.

tonight i buggied over the the theater, bought my ticket and chilled in the car for a bit. watched the high schoolers tailgait. amusement to say the least. i find a seat in the theater. watch the filler and previews and wha-lah... MOVIE! sweet. about fifteen minutes in, theres switch reel signal and then something is going on upside down and backwards. that rolls for about 5 minutes and they stop the film. [we sit.] up and running again (though we missed something cos it didnt make sense) for about ten minutes and there was literally a burn mark and then the film started melting. [we sit.] [we sit.] [we sit.] then they tell us they can't restart it and its time for us to go home. they did give our 8.75$ back.

STILL no clue how it ends :)

stay tuned... i WILL see it by the end of the weekend! lemme know if you wanna go with.

rebel run weekend - part 1

2008-09-27T01:06:00.007-04:00

- friday -

BEAUTIFUL day. headed out to fairmont to catch the early in-flow of rides at the james dean run. more than i expected for early on a friday. caught some photos. trying to get a few for lounge. met some interesting characters, whom had rides with much more character. i'm still not able to pick out exact years, and its bugging the bajeebs outta me. (note to self.) after day one – this is what i have to say

(1) mercs are hit or miss... more on the miss.
(2) fords had a sexy quality about tham that is so not there anymore
(3) a truck done right is stunning
(4) flat finish adds character
(5) be smart about your stripes
(6) 55 chevy is still one of my favorites
(7) converts still dont do much for me
(8) historic is cool, custom is captivating
(9) don't effin' touch the car doof
(10) i caught slim to none useable photos today

on another note - hope to catch voodoo kings tomorrow in gas city.

its going to beautiful this weekend. hop on I69 and check out the show.

top fuel

2008-09-22T00:03:00.001-04:00

Todd ends Schumacher's reign of TF terror!- nhra.com

hell yeah.

-k.

a few random music thoughts

2008-09-21T10:12:00.004-04:00

thought i'd take the lead from rock the planet this morning.

00. death magnetic. – had mentioned eariler in my blog the album. that i thought i had a frightening observation about metallica that i wasn't ready to share. i'm glad i didnt. all thoughts of that are gone.... tremendous album. captivating lyrics. dark chonky riffs. snare buzz. ...bass. the growl. chicago 2009 baby!

01. i miss good live djs on the radio. voice tracking is both obvious and causes preset flippage

02. classic.

03. after hearing the news of the plane crash that injured travis barker and dj am friday night, my first thought was that we lose too many people in plane crashes. however, that was quickly wiped away when 104.1's Amanda Rollen babbles on and says - right out loud - that she doesn't know who perry ferrell is.

...am i just old??

04. theres some intelligent hip hop goin' down in indy as of late. check it.

05. ac/dc. lets round up. $100... seriously??? i'll spin their vinyl collection for free at my house. c'mon over. i'll only charge $25 cover :)

06. dusting off old albums. is a re-experience. try it. im not a fan of greatest hits albums, but the cars greatest hits keeps getting spun.

07. fellow blogger cwade makes mention of this article, and i thought it was worth mentioning. 'America Isn't Very Rock 'N' Roll Anymore' - Duff McKagen

i said a few! :) more to come.

shiny.

2008-09-10T23:32:00.002-04:00

. . . if you dont have anyone to tell, it doesn't mean much.

new release babble

2008-09-02T20:48:00.003-04:00

i'm not saying that i'm the worlds biggest fan, and i'm not saying that i dont give a shit. what i am saying is that i'm excited for September 12th. yes, i've heard a lot of it, and no, i do not own anymore of it than i got from paying my metallica club dues. today they released the video for the first single. i got chills at one point of it about 2/3 of the way thru and you would have thought i was sitting on the bus, scrunched down with my headphones on listening to puppets back in the day. why the chills? i realized that even though im thirty-something, i'm still overly psyched to go to the record store, the day of release, and purchase the newly distributed album. i wish more people were the same way. sometimes the new technology we have available both amazes and pisses me off at the same time. everyone wants to be the first, everyone has to have it. i can see where the hunt of getting it first may be the same as my anticipation of the purchase... its probably the goody-goody in me, i dunno. (there was one release earlier this year that i was psyched to have and passed on when i got it – but have since deleted it and wont hear it again until i purchase it.... if it ever gets released. saying that, i guess i'm a bit of a goody-goody hypocrite.) i guess its just different ways of looking at things and levels of interpretation. enough soapboxing. just wanted to basically say that i'm excited for the album and disappointed in a lot of people.

-k.

the album.

2008-08-22T10:53:00.005-04:00

i miss them.

not only do i miss the large, vivid artwork, i miss the process of putting on an album on the first track, doin' your thang and loving damn near everything until it ceases in spinning. it seems that we're getting back to the days of the single.... yet artists still rushing up a full albums worth of material to meet some deadline set by the business to make goal for the quarter.... possibly not allowing the artist do the damn thing their way, at their speed, with the quality that they're happy with. so you get some good tracks with a lot of filler before, after and in between. maybe its that some people only have one or two great tunes... and thats cool. the past is full of some classic one-hit-wonders. but it seems like theres not much depth to what we've got out right now. a song here or there... a follow up that might rock.... but not much to identify this time with music.

this brings me to the new metallica album coming out. i've heard the live version of cyanide and the day that never comes was released yesterday. everyone knows i'm a metallica lifer, and i'll find the good in most of the tracks they lay down. they're working with rick on this one and i'm psyched to see how it is. yesterday i had a frightening observation, that i think i'm going to keep to myself until i hear the album as a whole, but i'm excited, curious, and skeptical at the same time.

another thing i'm excited for... WADAPLU by the mudkids.

so... start to finish... complete albums.
what can your recommend for people to check out?

-k.
be great and create.

music is good

2008-08-21T10:46:00.002-04:00

most enjoyable six shows of all time?
a. prince
b. metallica
c. poison
d. neil diamond
e. james brown
f. beastie boys

last local show you caught?
pretty sure it was a mudkids at spin

best place to see a local show in your town?
i dont see many... i like spin and radio radio is kinda snazzed.

first concert tshirt you bought?
billy joel - stormfront

favorite concert-goin' buddy?
depends what city im in. jesse, deb, erin...

general admission or seated gig?
love ga shows, but my tolerance for fights and crowd surfing is thinning. if im seeing a show more than once, i ga it the first show and seat it the rest

worst band you've seen live?
karma to burn. people actually threw their cds back at them

band you'd hop in the car and drive hours to see?
several. if its good, i'll drive. secret resistance in nyc was the last one i believe

do you listen to the radio still?
i do. hoping there will be something amazing on.... stiiiiilll hoping.

do you still make (for lack of better word) mixedtapes?
maaan i miss the cassette player in the truck! ive got all sorts of jumbled up cds that get tossed in now of older stuff and rusty radio.

what about vinyl - still spinnin' it?
oh hecky yeah.

do you hit up the merch table in the back of the room?
rarely. not since echobrain at the galaxy a few years back

favorite place ever to catch a live show?
the intersection in grand rapids

who do you wish you would have caught live that isnt still touring?
ooo long list. queen, alice in chains, coltrane, dangerman, lionel hampton, max roach, boomtown rats...

what makes you say "that was a great show!" ?
too many factors... presence, venue, sound...

in the car - radio? mp3? cds? 8track?
short trip - radio
long trip - ipod
in a mood - cds

all-day festival show or regular show?
it takes a lot to drag me to a festival show now. by the end of the day, i can't deal with the heat-exhausted buffoons and trashed teenagers unless its a gig i reaaaally want to see

most you've spent on tickets? for what show?
metallica millennium show and woodstock '99 were both up there

in today's world - whats your ideal price for a concert ticket?
i like it simple. i just want to experience music. i can do with out all the flare and who-ha. i get that the crew gets paid. hm... shot in the dark - lets go forty. not the 80/90/over 100 that they are now for the big guns. .

guilty pleasure live show?
poison for sure.

are you that guy?
ha! gutter is a tool.

what shows have you seen over and over and over?
metallica, rob zombie, pfunk, godsmack, g.love, poison, bob seger

favorite music quotes?
a. "where words fail, music speaks" Hans Christian Andersen

b. "I always tell the girls, never take it seriously. If you never take it seriously, you never get hurt. You never get hurt, you always have fun. And if you ever get lonely, you just go to the record store and visit your friends." penny lane; almost famous

c. "A painter paints pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence." Leopold Stokowski

two random not-so-well known songs you dig?
HA!
a. the hoodooin' of miss fannie deberry - kenny rogers
b. my boomerang won't come back - charlie drake

air.

2008-08-14T18:17:00.004-04:00

i have a day off. friday. i'm burnt. excited to roll.

heres some stuff i've been listening to:

yes, i know cwade, when i return, you're taking away my metal card.
ive also been checkin' out no room for saints, but there was no video.

enjoy. suggest new things..... whatchya listenin' to?

-k.

olympics

2008-08-10T15:15:00.000-04:00

alright.... so summer games – totally addicting for me.

are you sucked in too?
whatchya watching?

-k.

i'm not an ellen...

2008-08-05T00:29:00.006-04:00

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alright alright... i know... quite a few of them are girly-cheese scenes, but for one reason or another, they've stuck with me, they've made me look at things just a little differently, or understand something about myself or others that i hadn't understood before. the next one wont be as chick-flick-sappy... promise. just thought i'd throw some sappier side out there tonight. enjoy.

-k.

(01) before sunrise
(02) stealing home
(03) almost famous
(04) elizabethtown
(05) lucky 7
(06) the piano
(07) mr. hollands opus
(08) american beauty
(09) say anything
(10) rocky iii

2008-08-04T17:12:00.000-04:00

today's thought:

input

2008-07-31T18:50:00.003-04:00

if you heard something was happening here...
would you take note just by name?

if you saw this logo...
would it peak your interest?

feedback – bring it.

-k.

figment

2008-07-30T22:08:00.003-04:00

a few years ago i was introduced to a friend of a friend who had heard a lot about me for a number of years – yet never met me. we had a joke that he had begun to to think of me as a figment of our mutual friends imagination. over the years we've formed our own friendship - odd, none the less friendship. yesterday – randomly – we co-exist for a moment in time and it was great. even better –– something else came out of that moment in time. i had a realization i haven't had in many many years. long enough that i had forgotten about it. i enjoy being a friend. i suck at it a lot, but i try. i try to listen. i try to make even the slightest hint of a smile appear, i try to help where i can. yesterday while talking to my friend, who ive picked up and dusted off a few times, i realized thats when i feel like i'm actually breathing in this world.

-k.

touching [repost]

2008-07-30T21:15:00.003-04:00

my friend rusty posted this today and it hit me, so i thought i'd share.

In spite of any drama you go though.... in spite of any bad breaks and deals you have had to endure, in spite of all the hard times that so many of Us go through and are going through now...there is ALWAYS SOMEONE IN YOUR CORNER. Lean when you need to.

And We never forget why We do this and who We are.
If there is one piece of unsolicited advice I would be happy to give you, it is this:

'Do 'You' fearlessly and without regret. Believe in yourself and others will believe in you.
'

Thanks for believing in Us. We're just getting started...

'We Are Dynamic And People Like Us'

'We Are Dynamic And We Love You.'

Respect and Grace,

Rusty

life in general

2008-07-28T09:24:00.002-04:00

i'm reaaaaally over being lied to and steamrolled.

if you're reading this and wondering 'is she talking about Me?'
i probably am.

check yourselves.

-k.

fastlane

2008-07-21T00:02:00.003-04:00

i dont think its a secret that i'm a fan of vehicles. downright point blank - they're sexy. cliche i know. but... the lines. the power. the art. the sound. all of it. muscle cars. custom cars. sports cars. race cars. classic cars. trail vehicles. there was a series out a few years back that used a lot of fine looking rides and incorporated it with great film work, excellent color, great music, humor and some decent plots centered around the candy store. it aired on friday nights at eight or nine. it was ryan, chad and myself hangin' – kick back some beverages of choice, playin' chess (which eventually turned into intoxicated sorry and drunken jenga) and the teevee dialed in on Fastlane. after a season and a half it got pulled. practically vanished. it resurfaced a few weeks ago on dvd and i saw it as a must buy. its been sitting on my kitchen counter since i bought it. i was afraid i was going to ruin those memories.... especially if the show wasn't what i remembered it being. never fear – popped it in this weekend. it was all still there but my two friday night buddies. check it.

-k.

meme

2008-07-15T00:44:00.003-04:00

1. a smile for kell, 2. Life Cereal Advertisment 1976, 3. web caroline kholes hamse2, 4. Dreamy Midnight Blues, 5. The New And Refined James Hetfield., 6. Have a Coke and a Smile, 7. Abandoned house behind Rockland Lake, 8. The End of Chuckles the Clown, 9. Imagine., 10. I don't know the answer, 11. dawn passion, 12. Sunset at Port Klang, Malaysia (Explore 30th June 2007)

And here is how you can play along at home...
a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search.
b. Using only the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into fd’s mosaic maker.
1. What is your first name? (kell)
2. What is your favorite food? (life cereal)
3. What high school did you go to? (hamilton southeastern)
4. What is your favorite color? (midnight blue)
5. Who is your celebrity crush? (hetfield)
6. Favorite drink? (coke)
7. Dream vacation? (haunted places)
8. Favorite dessert? (chuckles)
9. What do you want to be when you grow up? (creative)
10. What do you love most in life? (i don't know)
11. One word to describe you. (searching)
12. Your Flickr name. (klang)
If you do opt to play along, please leave me a comment with the location of your creation so I can see it!

** i think this is one of those things that changes daily, but in doing it - i realized ive lost touch with myself and the wind is gone.

unbelievable.

2008-07-14T01:15:00.003-04:00

how does one mess up rice crispy treats?
seriously.
WHO DOES THAT???!??!!??
your girls got skills.

video time warp - metal(ish)

2008-07-13T18:04:00.006-04:00

POISON - Fallen Angel ('88)

Open Up And Say Ahhh.... huge album in my life. everything from the cover art to the last note of bad to be be good. i can remember riding around in mom's 1982 two-toned blue chevrolet caprice, thumbing the cassette into the player, trying to convince her that it wasn't going to make me do drugs and get thrown in jail. watching dust shift as i was slammin' down the drum fills on the broad blue dash in front of me - the world seemed to make more sense.

BON JOVI - Wanted Dead or Alive ('86)
i watched it – and i wanted it. i wanted it all. i wanted to be on the road. i wanted to see the day to day. i wanted to help make the show happen. i knew it was long - i knew it was ugly, but i wanted it. i never wanted to be on stage... but i wanted to help those that were up there giving it their all day in, night out

SKID ROW - 18 and life ('89)
i was thirteen or fourteen when i heard this the first time. at that point, i couldnt wait to be eighteen. forget sixteen and wheels... i wanted to be eighteen so i could be out on my own.... doing things my way.... away from the rules and their roof... i look back now and i was the good kid, with a great mom. all i really wanted to do was be loved for who i was. Sebastian Bach's voice on that album took me away if only for a second.

BEASTIE BOYS - No Sleep 'til Brooklyn ('86)
i just remember seeing their videos in the eighties when we were sneaking mtv since we weren't supposed to watch it. my sister and i just sat there saying "What IS This???" mine was in a good way; hers – not so much. i was ten. at recess jimmy, nathan, myself and a few others would jam to anything that had a groove beat.

GUNS N' ROSES - It's So Easy ('87)
wearing my keds – no laces, this album and i walked for miles. we mowed the lawn. we rode in the third from the back seat on the right of the yella-fella. this album was a definite no-no. there were skulls on the cover – five of them. obscenities. drugs. arrests. hid that gn'r tshirt for a looong time. even washed it at a friends house.

SUICIDAL TENDENCIES - send me your money ('90)
my grandma was this lil older lady who was always very involved in the church. the teevee worships that were on back in the day infuriated her to no end. Reverend Send-Me-Your-Dollar is what she called them. lights...camera...revolution is still an album that gets brought out on road trips and after a crap-a-fied day.

METALLICA - One ('88)

1989 – they tried to ignore it when i picked up puppets from the rack. the cover art - i had to have it. had no idea what it would sound like. i sat on the bus, slunk down, knees on the seat in front of me, i clunked the tape in my walkman not having a clue what was about to happen. the was one of the best rides to school – ever! not long after that i caught eye of the video for One. the imagery, the lyrics, thought. my life has never been the same.

capitals.

2008-07-13T10:25:00.002-04:00

. . . as in letters – not cities.

i've gotten a few messages since i started blogging, and several over the years about my incorrect grammar and lack of capital letters. i'm not an english major, and i dont really remember having much grammar in school... but i write quickly, and i write how i think. it is what it is. honest and raw.

as for the the capital letters – they just annoy me. flat out. distracting even. they stand out. things that stand out should be things of importance... and where as the beginning of new spewage of text may be important to some, it is not to me. my friend is creative with the capital letters though. he throws them in middle of words, he uses them in places that they matter. that i love.

so, lesson:

capital letter = take note.

BOLD/ITALICS = they're will be a pop quiz later.

Thanks for reading :)

-k.

true.

2008-07-13T10:09:00.004-04:00

the guy you see at the right... truly a great person. he'd give you the shirt off his back, without you asking, if he thought you might need it. he's one of the only friends i still hang with from high school. he works hard. he's got a huge heart. always looking for a good time. he's always there. he's helped me move countless times - including driving a box truck back thru the mountains in a blizzard. the roadtrips... the concerts... the races... and this weekend – he's helping me me (more like i'm helping him i guess) finish my garage. i owe him a lot, yet he just shrugs and accepts nothing in return. the next few hotbox's and covers are on me grandpa! :) much love, and thanks for being such an amazing person –– thru everything. one day it will be amazing and you'll find that they don't always finish last. you deserve the best.

-k.

blinky.

2008-07-08T00:39:00.002-04:00

okay... forgot to mention something today.

and no – we're not talking Blinky from Pac-Man.

we're talking turn signals.

they come fully functional - standard - on most vehicles, correct?

if i'm mistaken - pleeeease tell me.

is it really that hard to stick the pinky out and hit the blinker.

the blinker.

the flashers.

the turn signal.

the arrow.

the whatever-the-hell-you-call-it.

USE IT!!!!

-k.

sooze.

2008-07-07T23:49:00.001-04:00

tonight i got to have dinner with my friend suz from college. she moved to arizona after college and we lost touch for a while until i hunted her down a few years back. she's in town... okay, so atleast indiana, for a few weeks with her husband dan. it was so good to get to spend some time chittering over dinner at shake 'a steak. crazy. when she blogs the photo, i'll snag it. :)

oober tired. peace out.

-k.

destination unknown

2008-07-06T23:14:00.000-04:00

its a good thing today is sunday night and not last thursday, even friday. i went on a drive earlier today that was about two hours. made myself pull it in the garage b/c gas is so expensive but clearly wasn't done.... went on another one that was damn near three hours. the two were separated by the swimming olympic trials. if work wasn't on the schedule for tomorrow – im not sure how far i would have gotten.

temperature was perfect. radio was decent. yes - radio... just letting it scan until something clicked with what i was thinking about. lots of older stuff this trip. pretenders, lipps inc., don mclean, skid row, prince, ll cool j, mad season, boys ii men, ac/dc . . .

i drove no where. big circles around little circles and a loop back to switch it up and circle somewhere else. tomorrow is huge. its my first day having the whole north office to do design work for. i'll have the help of a girl downtown for mondays and tuesday, but the rest of the week, its yours truly. i'm not sure if thats what i cant get my head away from or if its things going on with friends.... but as much as i drove... it wasn't clearing up. but i could have driven forever. i wanted to drive forever . . .

what i do know...

like they say say in elizabethtown - "some music needs air - roll down your window."

2008-07-02T10:56:00.000-04:00

musicians with skills.

2008-07-01T16:03:00.000-04:00

the music business sucks.

okay, so i can't say that from personal experience, but i can tell you that i'm frustrated seeing extremely talented musicians working a day job, sometimes a night job too, to live. they live that way because they love music and will do what they need to in order to do what they love. mad respect for that. my issue: the non-talented, everyone-sounds-the-same, i'm-blowing-my-cash, no-hearted, i've-got-a-record-deal 'talent' that have gotten record deals or "made it big" (hate that phrase) for whatever reason.

now with the way things are, anyone can get their stuff on a cd and distributed. thats do-able change. but touring, promo and merch... thats a lot of pocket lint. and a lot of times, you cant give up that day (and night) job to do all that yourself no matter how much you try. how does it change? can it change without a money-grubbing-untrustworthy-deeppocket label? so what do you do to get noticed sans label? why are some of the most talented individuals i've met in a long time not getting picked up? its not for lack of effort. its not for lack of talent. its not for lack of contacts. is it because they don't have a 'niche?'

it frustrates me because i listen to the radio and nothing stands out. its beginning to sound like the teacher off the peanuts cartoons. whahwhamwhaaaaaaaawhah. it frustrates me because i know that cats like dave borla and chris scianni (dangerman / the secret resistance) and rusty redenbacher (mudkids / lazarus) have talent everyone should get an earful of. thats just to name a few. the music. the vocals. the heart. the loyalty. the everything. maybe i'm biassed. i dont know. and sure its all in opinion.... but i believe in these guys.

music business as a whole has been whack for a while, then the internet happened, and the whole thing is a struggle and combuzle. radio is no different. more music - less talk. yes, theres more music, but they just have more rotation of the songs that i didnt want to hear in the first place. do that - you may say iPod. i do use it - when i work out or when i travel, sometimes at work. thats how i can listen to talent - that honest to god talent. in my car, its usually radio just in anticipation of hearing something that stands out above the rest.

im sure there is no answer, and not being a musician, i'm not sure why it frustrates me so much. i've covered states to pay that $5 cover to see talent i enjoy. to support. it kills me not to be able to do it for everyone at every show. if you've got something you believe in - something you love to listen to... let me know. send me a link... send me a file... always love to listen to new stuff. any genera.

jobbyjob

2008-07-01T12:30:00.001-04:00

things in the media industry are rarely stable - job wise with younger people coming up and technology changing. you learn, or you get gone. its becoming more apparent than every now with the way the economy is right now. gannett - the parent company of the indianapolis star is making a lot of changes. newspapers are fighting story and ad to keep alive it seems and they're restructuring . . . a lot. its scary when you see so many things shift at once and you wonder if you're next. when you're gut is telling you something repeatedly you take notice, ya know? so i'm approaching with caution. i've cut a lot of things out for the summer... big concerts, road trips, california trips (maaaaan i want to catch the zeromind slims show!) ... just stuff. you try to adapt. i miss my west coast friends. its been a long time.

trying to learn.

trying to save.

trying to breathe.

p a t i e n c e .

something's going down, and i'm trying to be ready.

-k.

triangle.

2008-06-24T14:33:00.000-04:00

i have met a lot of people.

i have have a lot of acquaintances.

i have few friends.

i've always kind of been that way. i love meeting people – a people person i am not. friendships are picked very carefully. downside to that – i pick a few and seem to strangle them until theres no ship left to friend with. there are a few die-hards (love ya!) that have stood by for years! its taken thirty-two years... but i'm learning more about myself and more about other people and figuring out how important having people in your life is. i've tried to do a lot of things alone, and well, without people that you care about in your life, its lonely. i have a huge heart so lonely doesn't make a whole lot of sense.

today, my friend christy shared her lunch hour with me while we ate at the way of the sub. yummy. we only work a few minutes apart and neither of us are great about taking a lunch away from our desks, so its nice every now and again when we rip away from what we're doing and breathe outside air for a few minutes. i've known christy since we were in high school. we played the triangle together in marching band. chuckle if you will... but damn we played a mean triangle! our lives have taken totally different paths over the last 15 years, we've lost touch here and there, but its always great to catch up with an friend.

across the country my friends are scattered from the left to the right. those friends i dont have the pleasure of having lunch with, so there needs to be more of an effort made to enjoying the company of my friends that are near. so, of you i ask this - call a friend of choice and make plans to share some time.

-k.

day one

2008-06-23T15:36:00.000-04:00

looks like i'm jumping on the bloggy bandwagon. i've got a lil to say, and hell, why not say it here. can't guarantee it's going to be interesting and uplifting all the time, but its not going to be a whoa-is me either. we'll see how long i stick with it. comment back - good and bad.

today i dont have much more to say other than we've lost too many people in 2008, this weekend's most recent being scott kalitta and george carlin. crazy. im sure both names will resurface in a few days when i get used to this blog thing-er-ma-jiggy.

until then, be great, and create.

-k.